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Fri, 01/22/2010 - 18:13

Where are the sky rides? I wanna go there. All the stuff on the ground is making me sick. I feel bad for the people in Haiti and I can't do enough. We don't have A LOT of $, but we're not hurting. I gave $100 to the Haiti fund on TV tonight... I guess something is better than nothing.

Sometimes I think my dreams are nothing but pie in the sky. That's what one guy at the Cactus cafe called it tonight. Was really none of his damn business, but everything's everybody's business in Sunshine, I suppose. He heard me talking to my log, and just dropped in to give his 2 cents. All I was saying was that I might take an acting class. Nothing official, just been kinda bored. There's not a lot of rescues these days, which is actually good, but that leaves the Blue Top during the day, and coming home to a log at night. Wonder what would happen if I brought home another log to get the fire started? kidding... kidding, people.

There's this movie I might drive into town and see this weekend, Crazy Heart. Heard it's not crazy at all, but actually really good. And there's a movie at Sundance right now, The Freebie, that some indie people made... the kinda stuff that's a little too close to home.. the kind that makes you go hmmm... where are the fucking cameras? Well, they're not fucking, that's for sure. Nothing is around here, except the COCK roaches. They're everywhere, and I can't bring myself to kill them.

But that's no way to have an attitude these days... Shit, I'm only in January, and I'm supposed to be having a positive, new start. I just want something more, ya know... I don't want to die here like this. I turn 30 this year, and I feel like this is IT. I'm a housewife and motel attendant with a few dirty thoughts. That's not exactly the kinda thing I want on my headstone - DIRTY HOUSEWIFE.